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0 for 4. All 4 church planting apprenticeships we’ve considered (2 in CA, 1 in Oregon, and 1 in WA) have fallen through due to one thing or another. This means we both don’t have a job and we’re moving out of our apartment at the end of the month to I-don’t-know-where. It feels like we have absolutely no prospects and neither of us has much emotional energy to work at finding something else only to be let down due to circumstances beyond us.

I guess this is the process where God draws us to himself because we have literally nothing to fall back on to. As our last possibility came crashing down we considered our options:
1. Maybe we weren’t called to church planting;
2. Maybe Bryce wasn’t called to the ministry and should get a job at Starbucks;
3. Maybe we should just go plant a church and skip this apprenticeship thing;
4. Maybe this process has shown us some valuable things about church, church planting, presbytery relationships, etc and eventually we’ll find a fit;
5. Maybe we should sell all our possessions and move to London.
Honestly, I don’t think it’s #1 or #2. Bryce has been affirmed in his call to preach by other pastors and those in his congregation and I don’t think it’s #1 as there have been a number of very generous offers of financial support because people believe God will work through Bryce’s ministry and ultimately that helps affirm his/our call. And as much as we’d like it to be #5, I don’t think we’ll be moving out of the country anytime soon.

So, we’re trying not to plan — like we like to and because we can’t. We’re trying not to be despondent. Bryce has talked to a guy from the denomination’s Assessment Center as he’s well connected and knows of potential apprenticeships and other possibilities. Who knows where we’ll end up. Honestly, I don’t have a problem with moving wherever we felt God was clearly leading us, if that’s China, Africa or Arkansas. The hard thing now is feeling afloat, without clear direction and not knowing where that place is. We don’t have too many security blankets left to hold on to.

If you pray, please pray for us.

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