Archive for June, 2005

I’m hot.

Posted by Ashley on June 28th, 2005

I’m sitting in the Hays’ living room perspiring. Yes, it is positively *hot* in Scotland. Oddly, this California girl is finding the heat a bit uncomfortable. Yahoo Weather says it is approximately 68 F, but I don’t believe it; it’s got to be at least 70. The sky is a bright blue (after a major cloud cover this morning) and walking “home” from the Uni today was rather tiring wearing a black t-shirt and jeans, bad move on my part (wearing black) not expecting the weather to change drastically hour by hour. Today is glorious; there are tons of students sitting on the grass in the Meadows and all the pubs on the Grassmarket are choc full of business people, tourists and the like enjoying a cold pint out in the sunshine. Edinburgh is a marvelous place to be when the sun is shining (please do note my dependent clause in that sentence, for it is quite an important clarification).

Besides the miracle that is the sun here in Scotland, I am wondering if I will be too hot in Greece; sadly, with all my excitement about summer holidays to warmer climes, I do fear that indeed I will be too hot. This of course, coming from a woman who grew up in the sunshine, is a bit disconcerting, not the least of all, to me. Will my body temperature re-acclimate when we move back to the USA? Or will I be trapped in a Scottish weather mentality forever? Will my skin burn immediately upon the sun shining or will I one day not have visible blue veins on my legs throughout the year?

And if any of you were wondering where Thessaloniki is, here is a map. We’re off tonight, taking the night bus down to London from Glasgow and fly out of London to Thessaloniki in the morning. Here’s to fabulous food, hot weather, and a great conference!

Miscellanies

Posted by Ashley on June 26th, 2005

1. Here are a few photos from our trip to Banchory last week and a few from the ceilidh (pronounced kay-lee).
little kilts
2. I just found out that I’ll be teaching at least 2 sections of American Lit 2 next year — that’s American lit between 1760-1830 (first semester) and 1890-1939 (second semester). I’m stoked AND I get paid for this!!
3. We leave Tuesday for Greece! The paper’s shaping up but we are as yet not packed in the slightest.
4. I have my whole summer planned out — well, planned as in “X week I should do Y type of work” and “Z week I’ll be out of town”.
5. Did I tell you we’re taking the bus — the night bus — down to London? It’ll be about 8 miserable hours but for 10 quid a ticket one can’t complain.

That’s it for my shallow post; maybe Bryce will post something more thoughtful to leave you with as we jet off to rather-too-hot-climes-now-that-we’re-acclimated-to-Scottish-weather. Then again, maybe not; he does have work to do. :)

We are not dead.

Posted by Ashley on June 25th, 2005

We are just neither here nor there and thus standard blogging is on a bit of a hiatus. We’ve been up in the north-east of Scotland last week visiting Bryce’s sister and family — who are very shortly leaving our little island to return to the US. We had a grand time with them, resting, relaxing, taking some nice walks, reading, barbequeing and get this, I got sunburned one day reading in their hammock in the back garden. Sunburned in Scotland! What a novelty!

Wednesday last was our third anniversary. To celebrate we went out to a leisurely lunch at a restaurant/tearoom along the River Feugh in Banchory (this is where tons of salmon go jumping up the river come late summer). We had broccoli/chive soup to start, I had a BLT (made with brie) and Bryce had the cajun (w/ avocado) sandwich — both delish. We enjoyed our Chilean Merlot and had tea and split a sticky toffee pudding for dessert. All was fab, minus the walk back to town to stop at the cash machine cuz the restaurant doesn’t take plastic.

We hired an estate car to drive down from Banchory to Edinburgh so we could have room to take the Crocketts’ dryer (we’re getting a dryer!!) back with us. It rained the whole way but we stopped off in St Andrews and split a curry. We really love St Andrews. We made it back to the Hays’ flat and motored over to church for a ceilidh (Scottish country dancing). It was a woman’s 60th birthday and we all took part in dancing together. It was so much fun — although quite hot — and we did get a hang of some of the dances. There’s something very magical about communal dancing and I wonder what it says about a culture to have this as a form of social interaction rather than the highly individualistic clubs/dancing that goes on back home. Being that we had a car and ASDA (Wal-mart) is open 24 hours we made a trip there as well.

Tuesday we leave for London en route to Greece. I’ll be working on some editing and getting my paper ship-shape for the conference until then. Never fear, however, I will schedule my Gilead review to post on the 4th of July. All you Americans enjoy the fireworks, BBQs, and beach play time. We’ll be in Greece on the 4th and flying back to London to stay the night with my parents’ friends there. Pictures from the week up in Banchory to come. (Once life normalises a bit — post Greece and post moving into new flat — we’ll be sure to have some more thought-provoking posts coming your way).

Gilead, part 2

Posted by Ashley on June 20th, 2005

As a reminder, every fortnight Manders, Laura and I will be reviewing a section from Marilynne Robinson’s second and Pultizer Prize winning novel, Gilead, which you can buy here. Here is my first review.
*****

There is a peaceful melancholy tone about Gilead, one which flows out of a narrator who is so unlike so many earlier protagonistics — angsty, confused, and lost. John Ames’ voice is full of wonder and yet tinged with sadness; for instance he writes of his ‘dark time’ (like which in any story we might tell we refer and circle around to things our reader might not fully know) and the way ‘in all that deep darkness a miracle was preparing’ (63); he writes to his son of going to church in the middle of the night to pray for people, where the floorboards would give under his weight rather than creaking. But he ends these reflections with: ‘I know they’re planning to pul it [the church] down. They’re waiting me out, which is kind of them’ (80). It is peacefully melancholy because he is, I’d wager, one of the few contemporary protagonists who although he is quite sad to think about giving up his humanity, he is satisfied in it as well.

Yet as John Ames circles around his past in order to narrate it in the form of a letter to his young son — Ames calls the project, quite biblically, his son’s ‘begats’ — he inevitably moves back and forth between his current life and the miraculous in it (his own childhood wonder in his 70s at his hands and feet each morning and the miracle his wife and child in his old age are to him) to his own childhood, particularly returning again to his father and his grandfather, also two ministers, with quite different political views. Ames, by opening up his own life, by not afraid to tell his young son of his own foolishness, seeks to prevent some of the relational scarring that is as much a part of his son’s ‘begats’ as the actual genealogy. For the remainder of this review, I’d like to simply look at one passage as that which encapsulates much of this triangle of fathers and sons. Ames writes:

So I was predisposed to believe that my grandfather had done something pretty terrible and my father was concealing the evidence and I was in on the secret, too — implicated without knowing what I was implicated in. Well, that’s the human condition, I suppose. I believe I was implicated and am, and would have been if I had never seen that pistol. It has been my experience that guilt can urst through the smallest breach and cover the landscape, and abide in it in pools and danknesses, just as native as water. I believe my faither was trying to cover up for Cain, more or less. The things that happened in Kansas lay behind it alll, as I knew at the time (93).

Ames’ grandfather, travelled from Maine to Kansas in efforts to make the state, upon entrance into the Union, free rather than slave and ‘preached men into the Civil War’, while Ames’ father, was an ardent pacifist. Ames’ father had opened his father’s bundle of army blankets containing his weather-beaten sermons and letters, tattered and bloody shirts and a pistol used when he was a chaplain in the Civil War. This pistol, probably symbolising all that disconnected father and son, was buried twice and finally thrown into the river.

Yet, rather than focus on the immediacy of the father-son relationship, rather than didactically explaining his father and grandfather all in one go, Ames, like Jesus in his parables, tells a story — a glimpse that exposes the human condition, that we are all in fact trying to cover up for Cain. It is not just that Ames’ grandfather has killed as Cain had committed the first shedding of blood, but also that we are both condemned for our guilt and simultaneoulsy work to try to cover it up. Guilt — and sin generally — hides in the landscape, ‘just as native as water’. Earlier Ames had reflected on water being formed primarily for blessing — not just for sacramental purposes but for the blessing he observed in a young couple laughing under the cloud of raindrops fallen from a tree. The landscape — whether it’s Gilead, Iowa or the heat of Kansas — inhabits the blessing and the curse of creation in the ‘pools and danknesses’ and blessings of water.

But Robinson’s language is never forced; preceding this paragraph excerpted above, he speaks of seeing a photograph of his grandfather: ‘a wild-haired, one-eyed, scrawny old fellow’ (93), and follows the paragraph with a return to an earlier story about childhood fear about an unknown murderer. Thought follows thought in a meandering reflective, but not quite nostalgic, looking backwards. It is as sure as a list of ‘begats’. Ames’ narration is consistently humble, elegant and truthful; he is simply trying to open up his life — both the incidents and the style — to his son who will only remember him as alternately a father and an old man. Gilead has little treasures all the way through, pieces on which to reflect, savour, smile at and realise the import of only after you take time to pause and soak in a life that is embedded in the ‘pools and danknesseses’ as much as it is in the laughter elicited by blessing. Ames, in theological language, is simultaneously a saint and sinner; in fictional language, he is our reliable narrator.

Missing in Action (nearly)

Posted by Ashley on June 14th, 2005

Well, I am surrounded by a number of boxes and a few odds and ends that need to get boxed up for our move tomorrow. I’ve done lots of laundry these last few days, such as washing the gross bed pad that was left here for us that we used to block the vent in our bedroom to prevent a draft. My peace of mind is slowly returning to me; one clue is that I didn’t wake up till 11.13 am when the phone rang — granted, I woke up when Bryce was leaving for a conference around 7.30 but then conked out. Saturday and Sunday I had pretty much had it. I HATE moving. I have a hard enough time concentrating or just relaxing when our flat is cluttery; when moving, it’s utter mayhem all around me. Several times I’ve had to just go lie down for a minute in our bedroom or go read or go check my email in a place that wasn’t (entirely) messy. I can handle mess in moderation, especially if it’s an organised mess where I still know where everything is. But when you have a flat the size of ours, there’s nowhere that is safe from chaos.

Yesterday was very productive; I finished my rough draft of my conference paper for Greece and mailed it to my supervisors for comment. We also registered with the University Health Service which looks to be much superior to average NHS care here. We walked all around the city yesterday too, from the Uni to Morningside (Bryce was trying to trade in an old camera for a lens at a shop there) and back through Old Town to our flat. En route we bought some drinks and fresh blackberries to snack on. We also got loads of packing done. It was a mostly-good day.

On another note, I am utterly grateful for all the people who are helping us move tomorrow! David Urminsky and Benjamin Wilkinson — 2 of our N. American friends — are helping Bryce lift bunches of boxes and free furniture tomorrow. I will pitch in helping them load up the van each time and then, I’ll be focusing on making this flat look spic and span for the inspection on the following day. Neyir and Liz, David’s and Ben’s wives respectively, are also gonna help when they’re finished with work. The Urminskys were also so thoughtful for inviting us to dinner tonight, so that we don’t have to have another boring pasta meal or hotdogs.

I’ve put the ugly-as-anything curtains back up and taken down our lovely ones my mom made; in short, our flat is getting de-niced and quite uglified as it goes back to its totally mismatched, pattern and colour overload. Our phone and internet are being disconnected tomorrow; you may however still email and we’ll get back to you when we get set up at the Hays’ flat. We’re still available on our mobile however throughout our two-week stint of homelessness. And we’ll be off to Greece soon at the end of the month — sunshine, gyros, the forgotten sensation of warmth…oh yeah, and a conference the whole time.

Random Observations

Posted by Bryce on June 11th, 2005
  1. I am now in a position to declare that America is superior to the U.K. There are certainly many ways in which the U.K. is much better than the U.S. For one, consummerism hasn’t completely overtaken every aspect of life in the U.K. as it has in America (despite the best attempts of people on both sides of the Atlantic). But it really comes down to this: Americans have perfected the science (or is it an art?) of making tape that actually sticks to things. Seriously. It’s ridiculous.
  2. I don’t know why anyone would ever pay for boxes around these parts. We’ve obtained tons of them for free from the local liquor and fruit & veg stores. Of course, they’re all pretty small. But hey, free boxes!
  3. Does anyone else thing it’s really funny that Sainsbury has condoms in the beer section?

Thursday Thirteen (a little late)

Posted by Bryce on June 11th, 2005

From Manders. I’ve never done this before, but this one was really interesting, so I’m gonna join in.

This week: 13 things you’d like to learn about, given enough time and resources.

  1. Philosophy (I now wish I had gone for that double-major in Philosophy. Oh well. I’m listening to Ronald Nash’s History of Philosophy and Christian Thought class (recorded in 2001 at RTS and available free from biblicaltraining.org. Nash is quickly becoming my favourite philosopher–all his books have recently found their way onto my Amazon wishlist.
  2. Logic. As in, formal logic.
  3. Latin
  4. Woodworking. Yeah, I know a quite a bit, but I’d really to get into high-end woodworking/furniture making one day.
  5. This will never happen, but if I had money to burn and time to waste, I’d get my pilot’s license.
  6. PHP. I’d like to actually know what I’m doing, instead of just hacking around.
  7. Photoshop. Same as above.
  8. Anything creative. Seriously.
  9. Story telling
  10. I’d like to develop my Koine Greek quite a bit. I’d like to get to the stage that I can just read the GNT without much problem.
  11. I don’t think this is really something you can learn, but it would be great to be one of those people that can strike up a conversation with anyone, anywhere, and anything, and not have awkward silence after 2 minutes.
  12. Audio recording, mixing, and production
  13. Real estate (as in buying, fixing up, and selling cool little houses).

Real life update

Posted by Ashley on June 9th, 2005

To our dear loyal readers:

We may be a bit scarce this next week. We move next Wednesday and we’ve barely started packing. Of course this is not so bad as we don’t have all that much stuff, but we do have a lot of books. Besides needing to pack, we’re travelling by bus today to check out some furniture an woman is giving away and have a church BBQ tonight. We may have a few weekend plans as well and I do need to finish writing my paper for the conference in Greece at the end of the month. We will have internet access throughout our period of homelessness at the end of this month so feel free to email and/or post comments so we know we’re loved and if you were here, you’d help us move! :)

Things I’m looking forward to:
1. moving into our new flat on 6 July
2. going to Greece — not as excited about the conference per se, but am very excited about Greece
3. hanging out with Bryce’s family before they move home to America
4. staying with nice friends who will house us while we have nowhere to live
5. a lovely tea planned with Bryce for our anniversary on the 22nd

Thank you for listening to this public service announcement. Beeeeeep.

Gilead, part 1

Posted by Ashley on June 6th, 2005

For reading ease, each review on Gilead by Marilynne Robinson will be on approximately 50 pages of the book and will continue for approximately five reviews and occur fortnightly. Be sure to check out Amanda’s and Laura’s reviews as well. You may buy Gilead here. Robinson’s other novel, Housekeeping is also highly recommended.

This initial review is meant to give you a feel for the novel more than anything; subsequent reviews will likely emphasise particular questions the novel raises or particular moments I find captivating. Please note as well that these reviews are intended for the general reader and thus, I will not be dealing with the sort of intricacies that we ‘lit postgrads’ like to focus on.

*****

Gilead tells a very simple story: a man — in this case, a minister, John Ames — writes a memoir to his young son (to be read when he grows up) as he is dying so that the son can understand from where he came. It is a generational memoir, one that has echoes (at least for me) to books like Alistair MacLeod’s No Great Mischief. I take a lot of stock on first sentences. Here’s Robinson’s opening sentence:

‘I told you last night that I might be gone sometime, and you said, Where, and I said, To be with the Good Lord, and you said, Why, and I said, Because I’m old, and you said, I don’t think you’re old’.

The sentence justifies the whole project of the book — to take stock of one’s life before going ‘to be with the Good Lord’, while negotiating the present; in short it speaks of the central relationship of the novel between a man and his son. And yet this relationship is as unspoken in many ways as Robinson’s effortless transitions between the narrator’s memories, for it is primarily a writing of the past to a future generation that may or may not read it. The piling on of question and answer in this first sentence seems indicative of the narrator’s style on the whole: a sort of joyous, reflective, melancholic meandering through the mundane and profound of generational and personal past, present and future. Because of this meandering it’s pretty impossible to pin the novel down; as a reader, we sit with or read over the shoulder of John Ames’ grown-up child, following along the paths of thought and inspiration wherever they may lead.

The first fifty-or-so pages take the reader from the narrative present (1956), surmise about the future when Ames’ son will read this account (including Ames’ wonderings if his son will read it at all), travel back to Ames’ own childhood and detail his trip with his father to find his grandfather’s unmarked grave in Gilead, his early years as a minister during the Great War where people ate peaches for patriotism and covered their faces with scarves and onions to ward off influenza, and the anecdotes of his own parents growing old where ‘eccentricities were thwarted passion’ (39) and where his mother hid her nickels in her bodice to keep her husband from giving away their last coins to the down-and-outers.

In some ways, the book is more poetry than prose, the way it paints vivid images that sparkle for an instant — such as the couple Ames remembers in the Sunday rain where ‘a storm of luminous water came pouring down on the two of them’ from a branch and prompts their laughter and then Ames’ narration in the present: ‘I don’t know why I thought of that now, except perhaps because it is easy to believe in such moments that water was made primarily for blessing, and only secondarily for growing vegetables and doing the wash’ (32). Everyday images lead to moments of realisation and reflection, of missed opportunites and testify to a life of humility, solitude, fervour and amazement at the world around him.

So, I can’t really do a systematic review of a novel like Gilead; it’s a novel that sits with you, that makes you laugh and tear up and a narrative that circles throughout narrative time like any ‘real life’ story. It is extremely well written, in a sort of Puritan ’simple style’ that teaches me, at least, of the importance of dwelling in and with rather than just getting through. I think it’s a novel I’d like to re-read throughout my life to glean more wisdom.

Introducing…

Posted by Ashley on June 6th, 2005

a new feature: fortnightly review of Marilynne Robinson’s novel, Gilead, winner of the 2005 Pulitzer Prize for Fiction. To be reviewed simulataneoously by myself, Amanda McClendon and Laura Brumley. I’ll get my review up by tonight and check out the other reviews too!