things i wonder late at night
you, dear reader, may now be privy to my wandering, stream of consciousness:
why i seem to need to sleep so much
why i have a cough like a smoker though i’ve never smoked (must be asthma)
why Christians forget about Jesus (well really I know, we’re sinful…)
why my eyes get tired
why i am a grammar snob (you can read this as deconstructing itself as i type without capitalisation; apparently late at night i also pull out lit theory, which no one understands)
why i think literature is amazing
if i’m smart enough to do this thing called a phd
if it’ll ever be ‘hot’ in scotland
if i’ll ever learn how to reflect the gospel in my day-to-day
if we’ll have kids ever
if i’ll put the effort in to maintain contact with old friends
where i’ll be in 3 years
where we’ll go on some vacation sometime
where friends and family will move to
where i’ll live–am i a city or a country mouse
what it will be like to go home for a month
what difference it would make if Christians lived out their faith in the west
what would happen to the western church if it were persecuted
what happens to those urbanites who never see the stars or nature for the city lights
what difference literature makes
what i’ll wear tomorrow (depending on sun, rain, wind–or all of the above)
who will hire me once i complete this phd in three years
who my life-long friends will be
who cares about talking, thinking, reading, writing
who will win the usa election
who reads our blog
September 20th, 2004 at 5:07 pm
Well, my dear daughter, first things first. I read your blog, sometimes several times a day to find out about life in ol’ Edinburgh.
My ponderings:
I’m thankful for my health and that I’ve never had anything but oral surgery
I’m thankful that I live in the USA with the abundance of opportunities more than its material riches
I’m thankful for my salvation and am often reminded how I take that for granted and it shames me
I wish my calling would be more apparent or that I would listen more
I’m amazed that I seem to need less sleep the older I get
I’ve always been envious that Carolyn has so many good, personal friends
I need a hobby - maybe sailing
I like to read, but often it is easier to relax with TV and sports
I think Bush will win, surprising many
I wonder where we should plan vacations over the next few years. Mexico in May at the new Club Intrawest facility. But where to meet Ash/Bryce? Portugal, Greece, Belgium, Italy?
September 20th, 2004 at 5:44 pm
I read your blog!
September 21st, 2004 at 1:32 am
I don’t know where to begin in response to all of your ponderings
Just know that you are loved and cherished by me and many others. It is always difficult to not know what lies ahead, especially for those of us that are “planners”. Waiting and being patient while you are working on achieving your goals is no easy matter. Are you having Ph.D angst? I am so proud of you and glad that you have such a loving and supportive husband….and your parents aren’t bad either! Hugs, Mom